Mars in libra

Photo by Git Stephen Gitau on

I woke up this morning with my head everywhere. Like literally everywhere. I sat in bed and went through every single one of my “relationships” I’ve ever had since I was 13. I use the word relationships loosely. They weren’t all commitments. But they were all people that had some type of impact on how I view relationships today whether good or bad.

Mars the planet of power is moving into libra the sign of relationships and balance. I realized that at different times I was committed to different things. Sometimes that person, sometimes a personal goal. Sometimes that person was focused on certain things. As a man in his forties now, I saw how over-commitment is a thing and can cause burnout. Under commitment only causes frustration as you never really achieve anything. That’s where the Libra balance comes into play.

We have to put energy into others while not losing sight of our own goals. We also have to understand what other people’s goals are. Are they aligned? Are you two going in two different directions? This includes friendships as well. At different times our commitments may change. Sometimes we are committed to the connection, a job, status, or committed to finding our true selves. Either way you can not reach those goals without the involvement of others.

We are all like planets floating through space, influencing each other positively or negatively with our gravitational pull.

Enjoying the journey

Good morning ! Today is a virgo moon, so its a great day to reconnect with mother earth and be mindful.

Grounding yourself is great spiritual practice as well as a physical practice. We must never forget out body is both physical and spiritual and controlling our energy is important. This includes not only what we give people but also what we receive.

Nature never worries about anything…it continues everyday on its ritual cycle. Everything changes. Everything will be fine. Keep repeating that. Asé.

A Tarot reading on Britney #freebritney

I’m a fan of Britney and we’ve all watch her practically grow up in the spotlight to her own detriment. The media has had its own fault in this and now it seems her family is cashing in. It all doesn’t seem fair, and lately people think that Britney is being legally kept captive under a conservatorship while allegedly her father uses her for money. I decided to do tarot reading to see how all this will play out. Watch below…

Dream: I’m the DJ

So I start off this dream walking with some girls or girl down the street. I think she is a guest. There are bars all on this street. I can see inside most of them. There are long lines of people . I hate lines. As i keep walking it gets more crowded. it naturally transitions that I’m no longer in the street but in a club. Dreams tend to do that. I walk to the DJ booth and its empty. It looks like a toy. I’m playing with the controls and changing the music. I look at the crowd and they look fake. Like a virtual , cartoon version of a crowd but they continue to dance as if on queue.

These two girls try to talk to me and weasel themselves to sit in the booth area. It’s quite large , has a stage and several tables to sit at. I guess they want to feel important. As they sit down, another woman with a headset tells them to leave. When I look behind me at them leaving the dream transitions to the end of the of night when I turn back around. The club is empty. The stage crew is breaking down the stage.

I walk to the backstage area and two guys are harassing me. These characters seem familiar to me in my dream but not in my waking life. One knows martial arts and he keeps fake punching in my face trying to make me flinch.I catch his arm once and he acts surprised. I somehow video tape the ordeal and tell them to stop or I’m taking it to social media.They don’t seem to like that.

Cut to nicolas cage.

Why is Nicolas Cage in my dream? Well, it doesn’t matter . He’s built a robocop-like drone that has guns set on it and he’s testing it out. I’m watching in third person now. I’m thinking the drone is going to go kill these guys. Its backstage just shooting. dream ends.

Now I’m in first person again with my “boyfriend”. It’s a dream boyfriend because in real life I’ve never met this guy. He seems familiar though. He a white guy in his 40’s …emotionally unavailable. That’s everyone right? Anyways, I’m naked . I’m not sure if it’s before sex or after but he’s upset and tells me to go to my room. I guess we live together and have seperate rooms? I’m jumping into the dream in the middle of the action. I go to the bathroom. I have tarot cards but my dream tarot work different and almost float on their own. At that, I kinda “know” what I should do. So i go back to his room and he’s sulking I want to help him, he doesn’t want it. I try to talk to him on his bed and we flirt with our clothes on . He’s still sulking but allows me to cuddle him.

cut to outside…now i’m on a studio cart leaving a set. Was this all a movie?


I can only remember the last parts of the dream. I’m sure there was more. It’s like watching a movie and falling asleep in the middle and trying to put parts together.

But I remember it was time for dinner and I was with my family or at least a family getting ready to say grace. We all gathered and held hands. My mother was to my left. She told me to lead the prayer. As I began she kept stopping me to instruct me “how to pray”. She was like, “you have to hold your hands this way” or “you have to start with these words” .

It was taking a long time and I told her to stop, she was breaking the circle. I told her to hold hands and close her eyes, I would pray my way. I didn’t pray her way and as we held hands, my own prayer sort of conjured the spirit of God for dinner. Like literally. But all in all I gave thanks and the spirit was appeased

Suddenly, I was in a mall. There was a long narrow hallway and people were on the left side in line. I didn’t stand in line I just kept walking up. I saw the store they were waiting for and it looked like a thrift store. There were old jackets and whatnot. I thought, “why are people in line for this?”

I kept walking and saw one store closed but reopening in a different location in the mall. I was excited for some reason. I thought, “wow bigger space”.

The next corridor I saw some people coming out a door. It looked like a hallway from that movie, “SAW”. The walls were dirty and it was tiled like a bathroom. There were dirty open urinals to the right side and some men were using them. I waited. People were coming out this door on the far end. They were naked. They were deformed. Their body parts didn’t match. It was as if someone had taken parts off and reattached new ones. They were all stapled and sewed together in the most crude ways.

A doctor came out the door behind and pushed his way through, his apron and face mask was all bloodied. He didn’t see me. I was pressed against the wall to move out the way. On the wall, there were shelves of meat wrapped in plastic. But they weren’t just normal meat, they were human body parts. This was a doctor and a butcher. He was selling patient parts to people to eat….

Weekly Tarot April 18-24

Looks like its going to be a transformative week ahead. We start the week with the moon in Cancer, dealing with our deep emotions and family and end the week in Libra , which talks about balance. Building up to the FULL MOON in Scorpio!!! Wow. I feel the crescendo of the music. But how you deal with others matters a lot. Here’s a break down for every sign . Watch the video below.

Are We going to Have Alien Disclosure?

I’ve noticed in 2021 that media has been directing our collective consciousness in interesting ways. Mostly using fear to get everyone on the same wavelength.

Recently I’ve begun to see more and stories about UFOS. With everything moving so fast you might miss it. The news has spoken about the pentagon has admitted to this but if you had blinked you would probably have missed these recent news stories.

This is serious news. This makes our world seem much bigger that what we seem. People rather stick to their mundane lives than think we’re being watched by forces beyond our perception of reality. If aliens expose themselves, will they be friendly or will they make us their slaves? All types of movies have planted this seeds in the minds of men. I decided to do a tarot reading about it. Check it out

The World YOU SEE is an Illusion

I woke up today with a tiny whisper, “Walk by faith, not by sight” . It’s from an old biblical verse from the teachings of Paul. It was old knowledge that we can’t rely on the seen or the known universe to move toward the future. Everything we see wasn’t created by the physical world, but something formed from nothingness.

Faith in this aspect is energy. That energy come from you and you alone. It is an energy in creating a belief. It is hope before the belief (Hebrews 11:2). I’m not trying to be all preachy or anything but simply looking at where we’ve come from to see how much we’ve learned. We may not all believe something because seeing is believing. Believing is science. A hypothesis falls more in line with hope and faith. But before you see it, you have to imagine it.

A simple practice or a test of faith is to find a large field in a park. See that your path is undisturbed (so that you’re not walking into traffic). Close your eyes and walk forward as much as you can before you feel scared. The first few steps may be easy, but with your eyes closed and your body moving you may become unsure or uncertain. Now you’re starting to understand the feeling of walking by faith. Something in you knows you’re okay, that you’re going to be okay, but you just don’t see it. You don’t have to see it for it to be truth. Let that marinate.

It’s sort of like right now, my computer says i’m offline but for some reason I’m still able to write this blog. LOL…(hopefully it will publish… by faith ) Anywhoo… have a great hump day!

What really is the EGO?

If you’re starting on this spiritual journey, you hear a lot of people talk about the ego. Some will say you need to suppress the ego or kill the ego to get spiritual enlightenment. Others say you need to balance out the ego with your higher self. But all in all, a lot of people don’t even know what the ego is

If I could make it as simple as possible the ego is the part of yourself that you’ve created to protect your inner self or that inner child. The ego is always about survival and the self. There’s nothing wrong with that. All in all, I agree there should be a balance between connecting to your all-giving higher self and know what’s just best for you.

But the ego is a very temporal thing.

Its the part of ourselves that we learn the hard lessons from. The ego is like a dream self where when you’re sleeping, you are this certain “person” completely different. When you wake up, that person fades away and realizes that wasn’t “really you” .

The real “you” is the higher self. That higher self is connected to the all and it knows all. The ego is that video game character you decided to use to play “the game” . So in some aspect, you need the ego but you also have to realize that you shouldn’t get too connected to it because it’s not who you really are. You are far greater than that. You control the ego.